Dissociation- the scariest performance anxiety symptom?

My petrified 17 year-old self!! I have been through many periods of intense performance anxiety, and also periods when it hasn't been so intrusive. Similarly, episodes of disordered anxiety symptoms are common for me, as they are for a good many people- especially at present. As we move towards a space in which live performance …

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Quarantine is a good time to rethink our obsession with hours of practice

I'm under time pressure in quarantine. I have to use this new found space to prove just how much music means to me and to see how quickly I can achieve God-tier work status. How effectively am I using my day to prove that I want to succeed? This pressure has reminded me of the …

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My Popper Challenge 2019/20- why it’s good that I failed 40 studies in 40 weeks

The first of January 2019 was a difficult day for me and I remember it well. I was feeling very mentally 'off' and confused about my life, relationships, self and abilities. It was one of those times where you look to any distraction, something to focus on to distract from the realities of the moment. …

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