I struggle with being a mediocre cellist in a world of prodigies

It's hard to explain the feelings of musical worthlessness I experience frequently. My family think I am being dramatic. They have seen the intensity of my musical education and what it meant for me to get to Chetham's School and the Royal College of Music. I practiced hours and hours every day for years with …

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Irrelevance and musicians- action vs contemplation?

We can't be satisfied fully as performers until we see and connect to our audiences again. This longing goes beyond the classical world, to the dancers, actors and popular artists all of whom can't see their beloved audiences to give to. Performing makes practice worthwhile. It gives meaning and motivation to the hours upon hours …

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Dissociation- the scariest performance anxiety symptom?

My petrified 17 year-old self!! I have been through many periods of intense performance anxiety, and also periods when it hasn't been so intrusive. Similarly, episodes of disordered anxiety symptoms are common for me, as they are for a good many people- especially at present. As we move towards a space in which live performance …

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