Talking About Performance Anxiety

Having started the cello much later to most other musicians, I found myself battling the fear of performing at the same time as facing an insecure self-image that often comes with being a 12 year old. I believe this made the issue far greater than it would've been, had I been performing at an earlier …

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Sometimes we all get in the way of ourselves

http://youtu.be/GNc6qTwC7OY  I've never experienced a relaxed performing experience. It's always been a matter of hoping and praying that practice will have been enough and that my performance will be a quarter as fluent as it was in practice. This has really frustrated me. How is it fair that I become a completely different musician when I'm …

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I’ve just discovered that I have never listened

Until very, very recently I understood the art of listening to be a passive, almost reflex action. Something we don't have to think about, something that occurs naturally just like looking or feeling. I didn't expect to have to keep a specific awareness of the sounds and messages around me- I expected them to come …

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